Crone Wisdom: Embracing Divine Feminine AND Divine Masculine
I thought I did everything right. I was raised in church, but the events behind closed doors skewed my perceptions of what was right in life. Go to school, get married, have children, contribute to society. Sacrifice yourself, give and give until there is nothing left. Serve your husband and family. Martyrdom. It was what we as women were supposed to do. Expected of us.
Yet my childhood innocence was stolen, violated, and ruined at an early age. I was damaged goods thinking no one would ever want me. So, when a boy from school came along telling me I was pretty, I clung to him in an attempt to escape my fate at home with a totalitarian father. A teen mom experience that just tossed me further into the furnace of life.
I tried to make it right. I got married young, had more kids, graduated, got a job, and supported my family. I did it all. But life still was a hurdle and a roller coaster. At age 19, I had asked my then husband why he slept on the couch instead of coming to bed. He jokingly said I was old and washed up just like the couch, so what’s the difference? This just solidified my poor self esteem and further skewed my reasonings of trying to do life “right”.
Where did I go wrong in trying to make things right? I followed societal standards rather than embracing my own Divine Feminine sovereignty, that’s where I went wrong.
Society evolves and revolves constantly because history repeats itself and it fluctuates with cultural, religious, and overt control rulings of the day. Patriarchy has long been the controlling nature of general society. Women were property with no rights. Bred to serve their masters and produce heirs. Society today has swung the pendulum of life in an opposite direction with feminism on the rise. While I support having equal pay for equal work, I have never embraced “feminism” in the way that it devalues men these days. In my experience, this is not a viable balance to fight for matriarchy. To make all men out to be abusive and controlling. Or to make men effeminate and easily controlled. Divine Feminine has its own power without “fighting” as well. “Fighting” is a trait of masculine leadership, the Divine Masculine of protection, strength, and logic.
Instead, I choose to recognize the imbalances and the trauma behind these feminist views. I choose to recognize the waves of feminine hormones and embrace Divine Feminine empowerment. I choose to recognize the detachment and logic of masculine hormones without calling it toxic because it is different from feminine. I choose to place past traumas and the reasons for skewed views on the perpetrators of injustices rather than on a group or gender stereotype.
As I grow in my mature years of life, I am learning to let go of those past views, to unlearn all I had learned, and to embrace my own inner wisdom. I am embracing my “crone years”. At some point we all have an awakening in life.
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When that time comes, I invite you to embrace a new sense of freedom in embracing the crone years. Re-evaluate all you that had stood for, all that you have accomplished in life, and awaken to your own sovereignty. I invite you to see men as complementary, as allies, rather than the enemy or source of abuses.
Beauty is only skin deep. Ugly goes to the bone. Enhancing our own inner wisdom and self empowerment is where true beauty can radiate from within.
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A friend shared this writing and I just love it so much I had to share it here for you to enjoy as well:
Embrace your Inner Hag
If you want to be a bad ass sexually empowered woman, embrace your inner hag.
Thats right.
The crone. The ancient old woman. The witch. The hag.
The crone archetype is an aspect of the feminine not exactly associated with sexuality.
Women groom themselves to be girls. The younger the better.
Paint those lips red and blush those cheeks like you are wet and ripe for impregnation.
Make them believe you are in perpetual ovulation.
Make them hard. Make them desire you.
Get that face lift. Suck in that belly. Bat those lashes.
Guess what.
The crone doesn’t give a fuck.
And that is her power.
She embraces her spider lines and swinging, sagginesss.
After all, this is what life does to the body of a woman…eventually!
Does that make you uncomfortable? Would you rather not see?
Her secret threatens to corrupt you.
She can make you wild.
She can reveal to you your power.
Your volcanic senseless holy
Once she opens her mouth, the jig is up.
They tell you she is crazy.
Dangerous because she has broken out of that jail cell you call restrictions.
How would you have sex if you didn’t give a fuck about how pretty you look?
Or how flat your stomach is?
The crone is not an object of desire.
She is free to claim her own desire.
In a world that praises women for being objects of desire.
Where the more lust you can seduce the more value you possess, the crone is laughing with that cackle that only women of power have.
She does not possess the enchanting beauty of the maiden or the fertile reproductive juices of the mother.
She no longer bleeds. She no longer bares children.
Her sex no longer waxes and wanes with the moon, gaining and draining energy with each passing tide.
She is full.
The portal to her blood has been sealed.
She is drinking in the nectar. She is bathing in its luminous darkness.
Her sex is a diamond pressed and polished by years of experience and wisdom.
She has passed through all the phases of initiation as a woman.
That heavy web of social conditions all feminine creatures are baptized into.
She is unraveling herself from these webs.
She has liberated her sex from all their stories.
She is making it to the other side.
Freeing herself.
Without the ability to be a mother or a sex object, what is left of a woman and her sex?
I’ll tell you what.
Pure power that doesn’t give a fuck.
Crazy wisdom that knows how to make love to the moment.
Sex that ripples through every authentic cell of your body.
Sex that pulses with every tiny whisper of life knowing life.
If you want to find the seat of your sexual power.
Your real deep sovereign sexual nature.
Find the crone that lives in you.
Wild. Ugly. Innocent. Real.
The real initiation begins here.
Author: Maya Luna
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More on the balance of Divine Feminine AND Divine Masculine?
I encourage you to read some of John Gray’s Mars Venus books as these truly helped me understand my unique femininity. Cynthia Occelli’s book Resurrecting Venus talks about feminine power that respects and upholds the complementary Divine Masculine.