Darrel Koehl condolences
Darrel has always been a cherished soul mate. I felt this connection strongly and finding out he had passed just when I thought he was coming closer again has torn me to bits. We have had a long history.
His sister, Robin, posted on his social media page, and this was my first confirmation that Darrel had indeed passed.
The first posts were my heart thoughts just after finding out he passed, along with the similar connections with Andy and Larry who also passed at a young age. These three were my heart and soul connections in this life that I cannot explain the synchronicities and love shared in different capacities.
The rest were social media posts and all the messages and condolences that came in. Thank you so much to each of you!
Robin Muller
Sept 30 2021 356 PM
**update** my brother Blake Koehl and I – and our families are ever so grateful for your kind words and thoughts – please keep Darrel forever in your heart and memories
It’s with great sadness that I let the people in Darrel Koehl’s life know that my brother was not alone when he passed today
A celebration of life will be at a later date
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Jackie
September 30 2021
I was all set to send out my October newsletter when this news knocked me off center. I felt I needed to let my subscribers know why I needed a few days off work. With condolences to Darrel’s family mentioned here: https://mailchi.mp/fe722c6f54f1/ladybug-wellness-news-4795166
I’d like to extend my condolences to Darrel’s parents, Thyra and Cliff, Siblings Robin and Blake and their families and most of all, Darrel’s children Jerzi and Cooper. Darrel was very much loved by many, and will never be forgotten.
Jackie N. Rioux to Darrel Koehl
September 30 2021 3:57PM
I just talked to you 3 weeks ago. … not that anyone really knew our connection. I’ll love you forever.
Jackie N. Rioux
September 30 2021 7:04 PM
Soul connections:
Andy Senger April 7 1976 – Dec 13 2014. I babysat him so much when he was little. Later in life, we had this uncanny connection that any time we would think of each other, we would run into each other within a week. The last time I spent an evening with him was 2011. At the end of the night he gave me a hug goodbye. I asked him for a second hug. I realized too late that our souls knew that was the last time I would see him in person.
He was always my guardian angel, now he is my spirit guide. It took me 7 years to create a web page for Andy. It just hurt so much. https://ladybugwellness.ca/andrew-senger/
Larry Nizio April 9 1981 – Oct 13 2018 Larry was my son in law. We had a strong soul connection too. I seemed to always feel when he needed me to clear his energy. He loved and appreciated this connection and loved calling me Mom. I remember reaching out to a friend in June 2018 to ask for help getting rid of these awful nightmares that I kept feeling like my neck was broken somehow. When I saw him in July 2018, I had a chance to tell him that he will always be my son in law and that I loved him dearly. When I pulled out of the driveway, my heart sank. I “knew” I would be back in Abbotsford in October but didn’t know why. I missed a call from Larry October 11 2018. Larry died of a broken neck in a motorcycle accident the next afternoon. I have a page started for Larry but again I am in too much pain to finish it properly just yet. https://ladybugwellness.ca/larry-lazer-nizio-memorial-page/
Darrel Koehl June 23 1979 – Sept 30 2021 We always had family connections growing up. We dated 21 years ago and had so many other soul connections since then. I had written a poem for him when we broke up and always wished he would be back in my life at some point. He knows that my poem for him has been in my website since 2012. Yet I don’t think many of his friends understood how strong of a connection we shared. Any time I have seen Darrel in my dreams, I have seen him in person within a week later, no matter where we were. The pic on this page from 2015 was the last time he stayed the night with me, a 6 am photo.
Some of my intuitive friends had said we were twin flames. This past year (2021) we talked on the phone several times. I reminded him often of his poem that he appreciated so many years ago. I called him for his birthday and told him I wanted to see him soon. I told him to give up on all those young entitled b*tches that have screwed him over and be with a woman that would take care of his heart. He laughed and said he knew I was different. He appreciated that call. Although I have always told him I loved him, and that his heart beat feels like home, a month ago, in our conversation August 14 2021, I told him straight up how I felt about him and what I wanted and what I wanted, meaning him as a relationship again. He has always been my safe space and I could tell him anything. The world has gone crazy and I wanted to be close to him again to feel safe as I had in the past. Since then we kept missing each other’s calls. I had left him messages of all my favorite things about him but missed his calls. Yesterday September 29, I was in tears all day from some other distressing events, or so I thought. I had been thinking of Darrel all day, and wanted to call him but I didn’t because I was so upset already. Last night I cleared more energy between us, and cleared my energy. I woke up 4 am with more ideas to clear energy between us. Usually when I have cleared energy between us, he feels closer, and he did. Now I figure I must have been helping him transition. Weirdly, I had also asked our Spiritual Lessons regarding our connection. For both of us, it was “follow soul mission” and “You are eternal”.
Today I found out that he died after having a car accident 5 days before. He had had 2 simultaneous heart attacks while driving and they had pulled the plug Sept 30. I found out on social media. For as much as he has meant to me as a soul mate but unacknowledged by others, this was an awful way to find out. Most of my energy healer friends knew about Darrel as he always came up in my own energy sessions as a soul connection. It just feels like a nightmare illusion and I wish someone would say it is all untrue, that he is alive and well. I always felt such an urgency the last few months to make sure he knew he was loved and cherished. In the past I had told him about losing Andy and Larry and told him to take care of himself because I could not go through that kind of loss again. But here we are… We each have our soul journeys and the exit points we choose. We’ll never know or understand why or when our souls choose to go. As an energy balancing practitioner, I know miracles can happen often. But in the grieving process of denial and rationalizing, it is hard to not get caught up in the what ifs and wonder if we could have done anything to create a different outcome.
With each of these special soul connections, I think I intuitively “knew” time was not long, yet I hate that kind of intuition and have always denied it then realized too late that my intuition was right. They each KNEW how much they meant to me in their own unique ways: an angel, a son, and a cherished soul mate. I had a chance to tell them before they left this earth plane but still a feel a reeling loss of things unsaid.
Darrel was my last straw. I loved him so much and today I am numb in shock. I didn’t want his poem to become a memorial page, but now it is. I am just done. I can’t do this anymore.
https://ladybugwellness.ca/i-wish/
Tribute to Darrel Koehl | Ladybug Wellness
Amy Mauer: Feel my love Jackie. We are all holding you at this time.
Jackie N. Rioux: Amy Mauer thank you. I wish I had called him this week, yesterday like should have that f.ing intuition is scary now.
Melissa sleeping with me tonight
Amy Mauer: Jackie N. Rioux I have a bit of it too and it’s sucks. Glad about Melissa and I hope you did get some sleep
Jackie N. Rioux: Amy Mauer woke 230. With Andy and Larry I was inconsolable tears for weeks. Now I am numb and my heart feels dead. remembering our last words… now I know why I felt him so strongly this past week.
Tanya Kutenics: Sorry for your loss Jackie ❤
Regina Toth: Sending love and hugs Jackie. xoxo
Nataša Martinec: So sorry for your loss Jackie N. Rioux! I know how much all of them mean to you. Please reach out if you need help! Sending you lots of love and light in your grieving time.
Jackie N. Rioux: Nataša Martinec thank you. Just realizing so much of conversations this past year… just like the other two. Now it lines up and I’m a fucking wreck at the moment. Our souls know.
Nataša Martinec: Jackie N. Rioux we always know on soul level, but as humans sometimes it’s hard to accept. Give yourself time to properly grieve!
Jackie N. Rioux: Nataša Martinec I’m freaking out here cuz I’ve been told several times we’ve been seen together. Now I’m wondering if I’m next. I’m scared. Everything else came true.
Nataša Martinec: Jackie N. Rioux we are all next, just depends when. I do believe our souls decide on that when. If I were you I would focus on releasing that fear and allow myself to grieve. Hope this helps?
Jackie N. Rioux: Nataša Martinec thank you. I know this. Just all my trauma training disappears when it’s me.
I’ve got my network of trusted healers around me so I can still function
Myhrr Moffat: So sorry Jackie
Kare E Corfield: hugs
Renee Schofield: Sending you big love. So very sorry for your loss.
Janet Green: So sorry For all that pain — hugs
Denise Homer-Goodwin: Oh my goodness Jackie..I’m so sorry! Please reach out if I can help you! I’m here and am happy to do a session anytime. However prayers coming right now my friend❤❤.
Jackie N. Rioux: Denise Homer-Goodwin Thank you. Ironically I have appt with Sue V this morning. Gonna need to clear lots of no will to live. My heart feels dead right now.
Lena Freeman: Sending you much love and hugs!
Aubrey Grace: So sorry for your loss. Prayers sent for you.
Willa Vire: Sorry for your loss. You have many people sending you love and peace.
Heather Townsend: I am so sorry to hear about your latest loss! I wish that I was closer to give you a shoulder to cry on and to give you some support! Love you lots
Joyce Murray: Sorry for your loss Jackie N Rioux if you need to just talk and have a coffee I am here for you
Paula Hamer: Hugs/ thinking of you
Yvonne Marie Wittke: Sorry for your hurting heart, Jackie
Gloria M Padilla: I am sorry for your loss. Big hugs.
Jackie N. Rioux” Gloria M Padilla hugs to you too. I know you’ve known loss in a horrible way lately as well.
Elaine Temple” So sorry for your loss Jackie. Sending hugs!
Sharon Bourassa: Cherish the memories and know they are all still there. Mortality sucks and they were gone way too soon.
Janet Wyatt: A warm embrace. GIF
Jackie N. Rioux: Janet Wyatt that one just brought tears again
Jackie N. Rioux
September 30, 2021 4:20 PM
Now I know why I was crying so much yesterday. No one really knows or understands the connection we had. I just talked to you 3 weeks ago and then kept missing calls. I wanted to call you yesterday but didn’t. I’ll love you forever.
Rest in Peace, until we meet again. Darrel Koehl
Tribute to Darrel Koehl | Ladybug Wellness
Lee Mackenzie: ❤
Muriel Alyssia: massive hugs
Barbara Loutzenhiser Goggins: So sorry Jackie N. Rioux
Phyllis Ann Mains: Prayers and Love sent ❤
Paula Hamer: Hugs!
Sherry Mannino: So sorry for your loss.
Jay Pinelli: I’m sorry for your loss! My condolences.
Amy Jo Ellis: I’m missing something. Who did you lose ?
Jackie N. Rioux: Amy Jo Ellis Darrel… the one you said had such good energy
Amy Jo Ellis: Jackie N. Rioux oh I’m so sorry!!! I love you Jackie! Holding you in my heart. That Fing SUCKS!!!!!!
Amie Pagliaro: Sending you so much love and lots of hugs ❤
Jessie Sangha: Huge hugs ❤ So sorry for your loss Jackie
Janet Riganti: ❤❤❤❤️Jackie….So sorry.
Linda L Scott: so sorry for your loss
Holland Gauthier: Condolences
Dannica Turner: Awe hun, hugest hugs.
Kirsta Scranton: My deepest condolences. I am so sorry for your loss.
Tanya Lee: I am so sorry mom! I send my love
Lacey Jean: I’m so sorry for your loss
Willa Vire: Loss of any one is hard, especially a dear friend. Sorry for your loss Jackie.
Danya Rossi: Omg wow, my condolences
Betty Hoff: Hug tightly to all the happy memories you two made together Jackie: so sorry for the loss of your friend ❤
Jad Chamcham: So sorry Jackie. Much love.
Radhika Agarwal: Sorry for the loss! Sending you healing energies
Lisa C. Anderson: I’m so sorry. Holding you in my prayers.
Norma Zambesco: ❤
Chris Chimbers: I’m sorry for your loss, Jackie.
Shiela Maycock: Hugs to you Jackie N. Rioux sorry for your loss.❤
Dianne Benner: I’m so very sorry for your loss Jackie. Sending much love and big hugs
October 1 2021
Hey there lady bug I’m so sorry to hear about your loss. Let me know if you need anything.
love you bunches Lisa Glennie
Sending condolences………. Alana O
So very sorry for your loss!
Sending healing energy and big hug your way.
I saw that post about the bees too… so powerful! Leonor
Big hugs to you Jackie losing someone dear to us unexpectedly can be such a shock and knock us off our centre. Special prayers to you and for Darrel and all those who loved him.
Leslie B
Dear Jackie,
I am so sorry to hear of your loss of Darrel. I read you poem and your tribute and my heart aches for the immense love and loss for both of you.
I am holding you in my thoughts today, my friend.
Katz
Tami Young: Super big hugs to you!!!!
Debbie Kinton: Thinking about you and sending you hugs ❤
Jackie: Thank you. I feel so freaking empty and part of me feels like I’m “not allowed ” to love him as much as i have.
Debbie Kinton: Your feelings are valid and nobody can tell you that you’re not allowed to feel or how much to feel about him.
Condolences
Sheila George To: You Fri 2021-10-01 8:35 AM
Dear Jackie,
I am so sad to hear of Darrel’s passing. Your heartfelt tribute moved me to tears. You and Darrel had such an enduring connection with each other that will remain for eternity.
It’s good that you have a strong support group to help you through this devastating time. You are not alone.
With sincere sympathy and condolences, Sheila
Ladybug Wellness Page
October 2, 2021
Thank you for all the messages and comments the last few days. I have lost loved ones before, but each is unique and this one hit particularly hard. I am grateful for an amazing network of energy healers around me. Thank you.
His kids were his life. Please keep them in your prayers along with parents and siblings.
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Jackie N. Rioux
October 2 2021 6:01 am
Darrel Koehl loved by so many. dearly cherished. Eternally remembered.
It seems that only when we lose a loved one that we learn just how much they meant to everyone that crossed their life’s path.
Each of us have our own cherished memories and meant something to Darrel in our own unique capacity.
I take some small comfort now in knowing that each of our phone calls these past years I was able to share our memories and that you knew beyond a doubt how much you meant to me. Soul connections transcend time space and dimension. I guess we have learned the spiritual lesson “you are eternal”. His poem page in my website is my space rather than social media. I’ve been sharing my memories and musings there: https://ladybugwellness.ca/i-wish/
In Memory of all those who left us too soon. You are always with us. We remember you in the morning, in the night, when we look at the stars, a special song, a place, a smell. You are always with us.
Jonny Houlihan “Feels like home” was my song for Darrel because I told him so many time that his heart beat feels like home to me.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vYUfyUDFqTQ
Debra Wilkins: My heart goes out to you, Jackie.
Kathryn Darrow: Jackie, it’s easy to see the depth of your connection and your devotion to Darrel, and I wish you every bit of grace, comfort, and angelic assistance as you feel his loss. So much love to you!
Jackie N. Rioux: Kathryn Darrow lots of soul work going on now. ❤
Jackie N. Rioux: Kathryn Darrow I have continued to add more memories and musings to his page, therapeutic writings for me to let out the pain right now.
Kathryn Darrow: That’s beautiful, Jackie. To love someone like that, from the depth of your soul, is such a treasure in this life. Take good care of yourself. Sending a big hug across the ethers to you!
Sandra Cisneros: Many, many hugs!
Gloria M Padilla: Undoubtedly true it’s amazing how we don’t value someone in our life till their gone. I am guilty of it.
Jackie N. Rioux: that is my one small comfort here is that I was able to speak my truth and my heart the last time we spoke. We just didn’t get a chance to follow up the conversation.
Jackie N. Rioux: Listening to these today: https://robwergin.com/robs-playlists/
Jessie Sangha: I never knew or met Darrell, but he seemed to be loved by a lot of my friends…I’m so sorry for your loss..he seemed like an amazing guy..Huge hugs ❤
Jackie N. Rioux: Jessie Sangha He was very much loved by a lot of people. He was pretty special to me.
Jessie Sangha: Jackie N. Rioux …I’m so so sorry for your loss hun..huge hugs ❤
Doina Martinez: So sorry for your loss of a dear friend as well as his families loss as well ❤
Nikki Laird: Hugs
Car Da: Mein Beileid/ I am so sorry for your loss
Pammi Gill: So sorry for your loss ❤
Kare E Corfield: Sending you a humongous hug Jackie
Jackie N. Rioux
October 2 5:43PM
Thank you for all the messages and comments the last few days. I have lost loved ones before, but each is unique and this one hit particularly hard. I am grateful for an amazing network of energy healers around me. Thank you. Needing to keep me grounded cuz my soul didn’t want to be here anymore. I think we’re past that thankfully. My kids still need me. Grief diet sucks though. Appetite is long gone right now. Silver lining is shedding a few pounds. Bone broth for now. His page in my site is my space to share memories so i am writing more there. https://ladybugwellness.ca/i-wish/
His kids were his life. Please keep them in your prayers along with parents and siblings. He was much loved by many many people. I WISH | Ladybug Wellness
Lacey Jean: ❤
Lee Mackenzie: hugs
Gloria M Padilla: ❤
Muriel Alyssia: Bone broth is great. Nettle infusion is also great, Google it plus Sun Weed.
I also suggest Soul Support and calling all Angels essences, they got me though a similar situation last year. They are Alaskan essences, make sure you get the oral ones. Amazon likely have them too. Still sending to all.
Jackie N. Rioux: Muriel Alyssia thank you. I’ll install and accept energetically. Easier than purchasing.
Myhrr Moffat: praying for you and everyone involved
October 2021 GRIT
October 4 2021
SA-Name:// JACKIE RIOUX
Day of GRIT: #1 of 28
CONTEXT: StoryAthlete Finds a Way…
21 years ago I dated a man that I had known from childhood. Little did I realize the soul connection we had then. There were factors against us in keeping that relationship and we parted but have connected many times over the years. I had written a poem for him when we broke up. That poem has been in my website many years and I have referenced his poem any time we connected. Events have happened in the last few years that led me to believe that we might rekindle that lost relationship at some point soon.
I cannot explain soul connection, but I have had it before in other ways with a dear friend and a son in law. I lost Andy in 2014, and Larry in 2018. It is only after they passed that I realized the soul connection as it was, although in life we had an uncanny spiritual connection we could not explain, but we knew it was there.
Although we were connected all these years in our own ways, I had lost touch with his family several years ago. In January 2021, I connected again with Darrel, and again, I cannot explain the urgency I felt to tell him I loved him any time we talked. I had even said many times that our soul connection transcends time space and dimension, and that I love his soul. (Who the fuck says that??? But yes I did).
My energy healer and intuitive friends knew about Darrel and my soul connection with him as he often came up in my own energy healing sessions. Many were sure that this soul connection was bringing us together at some point soon. He also loved my energy healing any time I shared that with him.
We had some good chats in the last few months. I had hoped that he would come out to see me as he lives a few hours away. He promised to call next time he was here, but with restrictions and borders, I wasn’t sure that would happen any time soon. The last time we talked was August 14th 2021. It was in that phone call that I reiterated my feelings for him and bluntly told him I wanted a relationship with him again. Since that call, we missed each other’s calls a few times. The last two weeks, that urgency to call him intensified, but again, we missed each other’s calls.
Last Thursday, September 30th, through mutual connections on Facebook, I found out that he died that morning after being in a car accident several days before. He had had 2 simultaneous heart attacks while driving.
When I lost Larry and Andy, I was a wreck for a couple months afterwards. Inconsolable tears, but I managed to still live my life as best I could. The connection with Darrel, since we dated, was so much stronger as a cherished soul mate. I feel numb, empty, and dead inside. I was going to sit out of GRIT this month, but I am here because I need my GRIT warrior team more than ever right now.
I had told Darrel about my involvement with GRIT and I am sure he would want me to continue right now. We never know someone else’s soul journey or the exit points we will take. I just know that the other side is Heaven and they do not want to see us sad and miserable. So I am trying to find my way through this emptiness and tears.
I have turned his poem page into a memorial page and have been sharing some musings and memories there to let the hurts out of my aching heart. I am grateful to my energy healer friends who have been supporting me through this the last few days, because honestly, when I heard this news, my soul wanted to leave as well. My kids still need me. So I am here in GRIT again.
< End of GRIT post>
Neil Sekol: Jackie Rioux Praying for you at this very difficult time of loss. May God’s Grace be with you and keep you.
Jackie Rioux: Side note: Grief diet has had me not eating solid foods for a few days. Lost 8 lbs.
Niki McCormick: Jackie so sorry your heart is breaking.
Brett Wininger: Jackie Rioux I’m honored that you are letting us grieve with you here in GRIT.
Yes, it’s going to hurt, let it hurt here with us.
Yes, there will be crying, we can cry here together.
Everything we do for you or say to you is about taking the next step forward in this journey.
What has happened or didn’t happen is in the past and its unchangeable.
My Dad wasnt by any means a spiritual man but he often said to be more concerned with the ones still left here on Earth than the one that is gone.
Their problems are over, we still here stuck dealing with life.
This is a powerful reminder to draw closer to our loved ones cause there is a day for all of us that will be the last.
You are not alone in this walk, we are here for you, one day at a time.
Jackie Rioux: Brett Wininger Thank you. I was such a wreck from the news that my soul wanted to leave asap too. Thankful for support when I really need it.
Divine timing that a friend sent me a video a month ago meaning for the cats we lost, but I just watched it today.. lots of tears from this bittersweet: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6bF8UTZgFKc
Life After Death with Dawn Hayman
Brett Wininger: Jackie Rioux you will have a powerful story to share when someone else goes thru a similar loss.
They might not have the support, resources or insights that you have and they will really need you experience.
Niki McCormick: Jackie stay strong on your hard journey.
October 4 2021
Glenda Monett: My precious friend, Jackie, My heart hurts so deeply for your loss. I remember well our “girl time” discussion, along with the depths of your thoughts and feelings for Darrel. Very bittersweet. I’m completely stunned. I wish I could take this pain away from you!
If you feel comfortable with me and would like someone who’s a good listener, I am your girlfriend. ♥
No worries if not. I know you must be far beyond the mere term, “emotionally exhausted.” And, myriad other things…. I’m just so sorry.
I’m here for you, and you’re in my consistent prayers.
Love you, much more than I can even express.
Jackie: Thank you. Yes feeling very lost. Everything seemed to be coming together. He felt closer. Then…just gone and I found out thru social media. I have been adding a blog to his page writing thoughts there.
Oct 28 2021: Glenda Monett: I love you and I’m still feeling heartfelt condolences for your loss. I know how hard this must be. Much love and many prayers, my precious friend. ♥♥
Jackie N. Rioux
October 5 2021
Watching this video now… https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6bF8UTZgFKc
Life After Death with Dawn Hayman
Quote “I left not when you were furthest from my body, but when you were closest to my heart”.
Quote: “while my physical body grew weaker, my ethereal body grew stronger. Guides came to meet me and we talked about many things…”
Quote: “Death is not the end of life. It is merely the next step in the continuation of a soul’s journey. There is nothing to fear. There is love. And that love never goes away. You will never be alone. You will be accompanied by beloved friends. And you will know what to do. It only seems a mystery now, but it will all be clear”. From a guide through Dawn Hayman.
Sonya McMillan Marcoux: I was on that call!! It was amazing.
Jackie N. Rioux: Sonya McMillan Marcoux Thank you for sending it. I just found it today.
What stood out for me in the video was the story of the woman crossing over and finding her lost love and dancing. I can only pray that will be me and Darrel when it is my time to go.
The other part that brought torrential tears again was the quote “I left not when you were furthest from my body, but when you were closest to my heart”.
One of the last things I ever said to Darrel Koehl was reiterating a line from his poem above “I want to hold your heart close to mine precious and dear”. His energy was weighing on me so heavily the last week before I found out he passed, I was awake ALL night Sept 24th. Maybe his soul was reaching out and maybe I just wasn’t able to understand any messages as that is not really my gift.
Sonya McMillan Marcoux: Jackie N. Rioux I forgot I even sent that to you. I was trying to plan a trip there but they are still closed due to “you know what”. I think I may never come back. Yes, I cried almost from the very beginning of the meeting. It really had a profound effect on me and my view of “death”. Perhaps you are correct about his soul reaching out, that’s not my gift either, but obviously “something” was going on to alert you. I continue to keep you and his family in prayer and ask that you all be lifted to a place of peace. Continuing to send you love my dear precious friend. ❤
Oct 6 2021
Rachel Snell
Worked at ImpactClub® – Forging Elite Storytellers
10/6/21, 10:54 PM
Rachel Snell: I must admit I haven’t caught up reading everybody’s daily writing. I read yours for today just now. I don’t have all the pieces to know what happened. I send you the biggest hugs and all the love! 💞💞💞
10/7/21, 2:20 AM
Jackie: Thank you. Day 1 is an explanation and I’ve been writing in his page daily like a blog to let the pain out there.
https://ladybugwellness.ca/i-wish/ Tribute to Darrel Koehl | Ladybug Wellness
10/7/21, 2:21 PM Rachel: A big hug from me to you!
Oct 6 2021
Purnima Sharma: Jackie, I am so sorry to hear of your tragic great loss. Lots of love your way ❤
October 20 2021
Jackie N. Rioux: Until you experience a soul connection spiritual relationship with someone, you just don’t understand. Soul family is so enlightening and magical.
Sometimes you don’t understand this kind of relationship until it is too late.
“spiritual relationships: one of the changes you may be feeling right now is that you want to be with people who SEE you – the real you, all of you, those who get your fullness. It’s no longer about hanging with peeps you know just because you know them or have been in their lives for years; it’s about being with those who understand all of your layers and dimensions. They see your journey with deeper eyes. The Minds Journal.
Comments:
Parul Khanna: God, I at times feel lonely in this world, even when I have known so many people…so many have been so close for years and years, yet, I feel a void, and don’t feel like connecting to my own family and old friends..I sometimes wonder what’s wrong with me, Jackie N. Rioux
Sometimes I question my decision of staying away from old connections that don’t seem to resonate anymore… moreover, I am barely able to find any soul connection (physically around me) .. of course I have found wonderful souls like you on COA group…yet, I feel the need to have some connection, in physical presence. The world around seems to be led by superficiality and I feel a complete misfit..and distance myself.
I question myself and my decision because AJ says if there’s something that irks you.. it’s inside of you and you need to deal with it, to heal it and be okay with it.
Lorena Calin: Parul Khanna but it’s “natural” to desire to find your tribe
Jackie N. Rioux: Very lonely path yup. Supposedly means we’re destined for greatness. In our alone times we turn inward to find our strength and hone our spiritual gifts so we can be of service to others. If you had company, would you step away from that comfort to take those steps? Probably not.
Lots of times I am so f.ing frustrated with ” wtf did I sign up for here”. Especially when loved ones are tragically taken so young and leave children behind. Or just any other reason that we are so misunderstood and left so alone.
I have an amazing network of healer friends but they are scattered globally
Parul Khanna: Jackie N. Rioux I understand …thank you for replying ❤
Lorena Calin: Jackie N. Rioux omg!!! 100%…. why did we sign up for this?? #connected to “#soulsisters” and “#soulbrothers” – #soultribe
Barbara Loutzenhiser Goggins: You Jackie are part of my soul family
Jackie N. Rioux: Yes you are.
Rhonda Martinez Montanez: I see you !
October 21 2021 Jackie N. Rioux A new fresh hell with each loss triggering the ones before…
Renee Schofield: Sending you big Alaska ❤ !
Keith Olson: …and sometimes the person we lose is who we were before things changed for the worse. That can be the most painful of all.
Janet Wyatt: You are loved, today, tomorrow, and forever.
October 22 2021 to Sacred Awakening Akashic group
Jackie N. Rioux
We’re getting to half way through the course and I am finally posting an introduction here. I had meant to keep up with this course from the beginning but my life went sideways Sept 30 and although I am still functioning and living, my heart is void and broken right now. My original reason for taking this course died that day, literally.
Here we go anyway:
My back story is that I overcame childhood sexual abuse. I have turned all that past into a brighter future and a gift for working with my clients in overcoming their past traumas as well. I have had a website since 1998 and it really is a self empowerment resource with everything that has ever helped me in life being in there. Back in 2008 I had a breakdown at work (I was at the post office 26 years, retired early 5 years ago) and that was a blessing in disguise as it was when my real healing journey began. I started taking psychology courses and then branched into energy psychology starting my business in 2011. I had two divorces behind me and needed a lot of healing,
Around that time, I had someone tell me a few things about Akashic records. One thing that stood out was being told that I am one of 800 special souls who came to Earth to encourage others. That is me alright, and the reason behind my website. I have also been told that I am a “very good conduit” in networking people and information. Yup, that is me too.
I published my story in an anthology book in 2017. I now have a YouTube channel and share my stories through my website and through this YouTube channel, including the reason behind my ladybugs.
I am certified in a few modalities such as Thought Field Tapping Techniques, Usui Reiki Master Teacher, Emotion Code. I have taken many other courses that I have integrated into my own unique toolbox.
I have had a very strong soul connection with a man I dated 21 years ago. We had grown up together, but factors were against us then. We have connected many times over the years just picking up where we left off. A couple years ago an intuitive suggested he was my Twin Flame and told me she saw us together for many happy years. Several other trusted intuitive friends have confirmed he is definitely a soul mate. I myself had such an urgency regarding him the last few years. Every time I talked to him I kept telling him I loved him and what he meant to me. In our last conversation, I had told him I wanted to rekindle our relationship and I told him I had signed up for this course with the intention to figure out this soul connection between us. We kept missing calls after that and I found out that he died Sept 30. I have had to do a heck of a lot of energy balancing since then and I am grateful for my energy healer friends supporting me because I wanted to go to sleep that night and just not wake up. My 4 kids and 5 grandkids still need me here though. My intuitive friends keep reminding me that we choose our exit points before coming to earth, and that one intuitive friend says that her prediction must have meant with him on the other side as we are now closer in heart than when he was here physically.
My mind is still having a hard time with the humanness grieving of 3D and having to grasp 5D spiritual reasoning.
But it is time to buckle down and get busy on this course to catch up and see what the future has in store for me. Pic is an aura reading I had done a few years ago.
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Teresa Williams Carson: Thank you for sharing Jackie N. Rioux… and welcome! I hope you find peace in your heart!
Dana Croiala: Hugs, love and Light! May find your strengths to move forward!
Linda Gui: So very courageous and kind of you to share, Jackie! Hope you will heal and regain peace in your heart ❤
Carmen Manastyrski-Goebel: Glad you’re here
Kimberly Saunders: Sending love to you. I’m grateful you continue each day. ❤
Michelle Hamady: Thank you for sharing your post. Heart hugs to you as you continue to heal. I’m glad you’re here in this group during this time. May your courageous light continue to strengthen and shine.
Paula Durrani: Wow thank you sharing your journey. This course has been amazing for me so far and I hope you find the answers and guidance you were guided to. I also love this picture I didn’t know it was possible to take picture of your Aura
Jackie N. Rioux: Paula Durrani I met a young man in a course years ago that had some sort of app where he could draw what he sees.
Ciayrra Jhenelle: We might have chose it, but depending on our circumstances is how we will feel and react. It is important to process and grieve. I’m sorry for your loss
Victoria Seeberger: Thank you for sharing, and i feel compelled to say that i feel that through this course you’ll learn to channel him. And maybe part of his journey was becoming your guardian, and its something that in the physical he couldn’t accomplish. I pray you can find comfort knowing that the Masters Teachers and Loved are with you, including this love that has now transformed❤
Jackie N. Rioux: Victoria Seeberger thank you. That is what I am trying to accept and wrap my head around now. I hope you are right. Looking back on all our conversations, I realize now how many time I have said to him “Your heartbeat feels like home”, I love you, I love your body, I love your soul”, and “our soul connection transcends time space and dimension”.
Kinda freaky now realizing I have never said those things to anyone else.
Amy Robeson Admin: I am so sorry for your loss Jackie N. Rioux. We are not separate from one another so you can have a loving relationship with him in the spiritual realms and not in human form. I would suggest asking more questions in the records about how you can connect with his High VIbrational Soul in his whole form. I would also ask how his passing is impacting your bodies and how you can support all aspects of yourself in this stage of grief. ❤ Sending you a big hug and lots of love and light
Tappy Doane
Nov 7, 2021, 10:52 AM
Saw your beautiful post(s). Sorry for your losses
I read you blogpost about Andy
November 6 2021
Carol Surbey post: Who here has hope for the future?
Jackie N. Rioux: Losing hope… losing loved ones
Carol Surbey: Jackie N. Rioux: I know. I feel for you hun. Just know that many love you…
Jackie N. Rioux: Carol Surbey: It is so frustrating when I “know” why, but his family doesn’t connect the dots and I am shunned
Penelope Daune: Jackie N. Rioux sending you much strength
Jackie N. Rioux: I lost my soul mate to heart attack. No proof on reason but I “know “. There is no reason he should have had a heart attack.
Walter Mark William Beardwood: Jackie N. Rioux: https://www.ahajournals.org/doi/10.1161/circ.144.suppl_1.10712
Jackie N. Rioux: Walter Mark William Beardwood thank you. We also had a extended family member pass 2 days after v. Heart attack. Family demanded autopsy and were refused.
Ladybug Wellness
November 14, 2021
My project today was putting some of my grief process to good use. I cannot explain how many times in the last while I have had some of the most random connections to bring someone into my awareness that has either a loved one in hospice, or someone recently passed.
I have been offering my resources to assist them. Now today I put it all into one web page to share. I probably will add more and adjust as I always do as new information comes in, but this is a start: https://ladybugwellness.ca/managing-grief/
Assistance for Grieving Hearts | Managing Grief by Ladybug | Nov 15, 2021 | Tributes |
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Jackie N. Rioux
November 14 2021
Back in August 2021, I signed up for 2 different Akashic Records certification courses. While this was a way to offer a new service to my Ladybug Wellness clients, I also had a way more personal and selfish reason to take these courses. I wanted to explore and learn more about my own soul purpose, and the deep soul connection I have had with Darrel Koehl for many, many years. All my aspirations with this course got put on hold when I found out he had passed away.
With encouragement from my mentors and teachers, I now understand that we have not been disconnected and are in fact way more connected now than ever before.
If you have never experienced a deep soul connection with someone, it is like an intense chemistry of knowingness. While Darrel and I did converse a lot, many things between us we just “knew”; with time, space, dimension never being an issue. Having grown up in the same neighborhood with a similar German background upbringing, our earthly soul family connection goes back a long way, most of our lives actually.
Yes there has been a helluva lotta tears. My physical body has definitely been grieving and reacting to the heartache of never being able to enjoy his physical presence again or seeing his number come up on my phone again, but I have a renewed hope of being able to experience a loving relationship as predicted, on a whole different level, without the earthly attachments, hindrances, and interferences that were factors against us in this life.
The first few days, it was not just that I felt my heart died with him. My soul wanted to leave and go Home with him as well. I am so grateful for my own energy balancing skills and the network of energy healers that I am blessed to call friends. They have stepped up in a big way to assist me in keeping grounded and releasing the emotional charge of pain and heartache these last few weeks. I have been able to balance my mental and emotional state of mind in order to keep my energy vibration high so I can continue to connect on the soul and spiritual level with his Higher Vibrational Whole self.
We had talked so many times of stepping into our own power, following our Soul Mission, the past life connections between us. That fascinated him immensely. The Spiritual Lessons between us, I have learned, are “Follow your Soul Mission” and “You are Eternal”. I have always known Darrel to be a beautiful old soul. I just didn’t realize he would be stepping into his Divine Soul Mission at a whole different level by dropping the shackles of this earthly life and leaving the physical plane before me.
I had no idea how seriously he would be taking his nickname “Shiny Diamond” in transitioning to ascended Pure Crystalline energy. Mulling over and reanalyzing our past conversations, particularly the last few years, I am realizing we have been soul talking all along, and now so many things make sense! “I love you, I love your body, I love your soul”. I have always told him that his heart beat feels like Home, and more recently referenced the Johnny Houlihan country song. Darrel loved and was always fascinated with all the energy work I did with him and how it made sense for him. He always gave me great feedback that gave me more insights in this work. In our very last conversations, I had told him I signed up for these Akashic courses so I could explore more about the soul connection between us. One of the very last things I said to him was that my favorite thing was curling up with him and listening to his heart beat, and referencing his poem in my website yet again. Less than two weeks later he left his physical body.
From the first intuitive prediction of “you’re going to fall for a country boy” where 6 months later I was dating Darrel, to many other intuitive connections over the years, to the most recent “you’ll be hand in hand for many happy years”. I suppose this is a whole new way of understanding “take my hand, we’ll make it I swear, Living on a Prayer”.
I have been working through this course this past week and opening my clairs so I can better connect in the Akash, but also with Darrel. I have had at least 3 visits this past week. I can see him radiantly happy now. Pure authentic joy. I felt his love for Allison and his pride in “getting something right” here on earth. I felt his love for his kids strongly. And I felt his presence keeping me company all night a few times — hearing his heartbeat in a different way now. Death is only a doorway, and the veil is thin. 11:11 is a Twin Flame portal. Now I can look forward to more visits and a loving relationship with Darrel as my Spirit Guide and Heavenly Soul Mate.
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Darrel was relentless in pursing me until I agreed to date him. This is the poem I wrote for Darrel at the time when I had to love him enough to let him go. He loved this poem and he knew that it has been in my website for years. Now turned into my own tribute to him since he was not fond of social media.
I WISH
I wish I could be the one by your side holding hands, strolling along a beach as waves caress our feet, the sun warms our complexions, and a cool breeze stirs the air;
I wish I could be the one by your side beholding the wonders of nature – majestic mountains, towering trees, rushing rivers, and budding blossoms
I wish I could be the one by your side savoring the scents of fresh cut grass, cedar trees, wild flowers and mountain streams;
I wish I could be the one by your side on a hillside bluff admiring the radiant colors of a summer sunset, then gazing at, and wishing upon shooting stars;
I wish I could be the one by your side sharing the excitement of discovering something new;
I wish I could be the one by your side sharing stories, secrets, riddles, and knowledge, to bond and to grow;
I wish I could be the one by your side sharing an ice cream sundae—one bowl, one spoon, and kissing away the chocolate sauce;
I wish I could be the first to hear of your good news, happy moments and latest jokes;
I wish I could be the one you turn to first for a shoulder to lean on, or a listening ear in times of trouble;
I wish I could be the one to kiss your toes, sharing soft touches, tickles, and silly giggles;
I wish I could be the one making love with you in the moonlight, time standing still….tender kisses….gentle words….then waking up in your arms to the dancing of the morning sun;
I wish I could be the one to hold your heart, precious and dear, close to mine;
I wish I could be the one granted the freedom to love you like no other;
If only I could be this one, would be the luckiest lady in the whole wide world!
Written for Darrel C. L. Koehl ~Jackie Rioux April 14, 2000
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Janet Wyatt: Precious soul.
Amy Richards: Beautiful Jackie! Soooo sorry for your loss When did he pass? I can relate to wanting to join him as it took me years to stop wanting to join our daughter, Jenny! We had a soul connection, as well as mother daughter and great pals… we took a lot of Spiritual classes together and her great sense of humor I miss so much! She had an incredible singing voice, a degree in music and she was a great songwriter, like Amy Jo and her dad and brother. Love you, Jackie!
Jackie N. Rioux: Amy Richards I was just on a practitioner call a few days ago and some of the discussion was about passed loved ones and that they are among us, just not in a physical body. They are our spirit guides now. That was comforting to hear. I know Jenny is a beautiful soul too. I have just come to understand that this human experience is only a blip of our soul’s journey and some just go to their next soul mission before the rest of us.
Amy Richards: Jackie N. Rioux I think so too… sand it’s the only comfort I get upon losing my loved ones!
Barbara Loutzenhiser Goggins: Dear dear Jackie, remember how we have talked many times , how our darkest hours become our finest blessings. You are really getting it now. Beautiful heartfelt writing about unconditional love. This is some of the finest writing ever. So very Lovely! Hugs !
Myhrr Moffat: Beautiful poem
Stacey Little Paydar: Jackie, this is so amazing!! And beautiful! I totally understand.
Lisa C. Anderson: ❤ Beautiful.
December 1 2021: Jackie N. Rioux: Lots of bittersweet tears this morning. I got a “message” from Darrel Koehl , and he sent flowers. He also thanked me for loving him so unconditionally, accepting him as he is…. as I always have.
(I made a cross stitch for him years ago that said “I love you just the way you are”).
Our last earthly conversation he said he knew I was different. Yup.
December 1 2021
That was such a special letter you wrote about knowing a friend that you knew you loved before and that he passed away. it touch my heart.
My sincere belief and understanding from my relationship with Heaven Father, heavenly mother, and the Lord Jesus Christ, you will have him forever in eternity. That of course is not much of a consolation now. But you can ask his spirit to be by you often. He will come. It was sincerely sweet and moving what you wrote. Thank you for sharing with me.
…… It’s hard not to fully have those we deeply love and adore. But we came here to have experiences and the ones we have usually are hard and difficult in this life, for our growth.
Thank you for the love you put into the world thru your work.
Stacey
Much love and blessing
December 1 2021
I lost my soul mate 2 months ago. I put together a page in my site of resources that have helped me. Maybe something here might be helpful to you as well. https://ladybugwellness.ca/managing-grief/
Resources for Managing Grief | Ladybug Wellness
Linda Rasmussen: Jackie N. Rioux thanks. So sorry for your loss.
Robin Peterson Bair: Jackie N. Rioux. Thank You for sharing your resources so willingly. I am very sorry for your loss Jackie. You are such an amazing woman. God Bless.
Jackie N. Rioux shared a memory. Andy passed.
December 14 2021
7 years… I remember in January 2015, in a chat with Darrel Koehl I was the one who told him Andy had passed. Now Darrel has passed too. Both my spirit guides now along with Larry.
Death is only a doorway and the veil is thin…..
Jackie N. Rioux shared a memory.
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7 years… I remember in January 2015, in a chat with Darrel Koehl I was the one who told him Andy had passed. Now Darrel has passed too. Both my spirit guides now along with Larry.
Death is only a doorway and the veil is thin…..
7 Years Ago
Jackie N. Rioux is with Kerry Palagian.
December 14 2014
Andrew Senger my heart is ripping out realizing you are gone… my special friend, my guardian angel… You have always had a genuine love for others, a shining light to so many who knew you.
Jackie N. Rioux
December 15 2021
If you watch one thing today, watch THIS. OMG!!
More and more, all my conversations the last several years with Darrel Koehl make so much sense now. This is why I keep hearing him say “You set me free”. He is so happy and free now:
She Died Suddenly & Met God, What He Told Her About Energy Will Shock You | NDE
Penny Wittbrodt’s Near Death Experience (NDE) and how she got out of the void.
God showed her a future event with her grandson, taught her the power of thoughts, and why forgiveness is so important. This is her NDE testimony. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XLJ4V7O6KhI
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Jackie N. Rioux: Barbara Loutzenhiser Goggins watch this!!! OMG!!
Barbara Loutzenhiser Goggins: Jackie N. Rioux ok, I will
Jackie N. Rioux: Barbara Loutzenhiser Goggins I remember a conversation recently about sacrifice. Now that makes sense too.
Barbara Loutzenhiser Goggins:Jackie N. Rioux yea, resembles my near death experience too, and many of the things I too shared in your 1st reading were shared here too
Jackie N. Rioux
Barbara Loutzenhiser Goggins Yes all your readings with me are definitely making more sense now too, especially about Darrel
Lena Freeman: Thank you for the reminder, Jackie!
Jad Chamcham: I am not crying, nope. Great video
Jackie N. Rioux: Jad Chamcham you know its soul talk when tears flow
Janet Riganti: Wonderful and so detailed!
Jackie N. Rioux
December 15 2021
Fascinating
Why He No Longer has Faith After His Near Death Experience
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R8o2rcWldWk
Peter Panagore talks about his NDE (near death experience) and how it changed him forever. This is his testimony. 7 Comments
Muriel Alyssia: similar to all accounts I have read
Jackie N. Rioux: Yup. And now with my recent loss I know beyond a doubt this is all confirmed. He is so happy to be free now.
Muriel Alyssia: Jackie N. Rioux I am sure he is.
My niece told me when she was five that she wanted to go to heaven. I didn’t understand then, but as a baby her heart often stopped, she had one of those monitors.. she told me that when she was ‘done’, Jesus had her in his arms. I wish I had understood and asked her more, but I thought she was telling me she was suicidal and panicked. Now I understand what she was trying to tell me. My dogs convinced me long ago and I look forward to going home and seeing them again.
Jackie N. Rioux: Muriel Alyssia it is downright freaky what I now realize after my loved ones passed. Our souls were talking all along. All our conversations make sense now. Yup I look forward to seeing them again. But I also know they are right here with me always.
Muriel Alyssia: Jackie N. Rioux exactly. My girls have taught me so much via communications.
Barbara Loutzenhiser Goggins: Jackie N. Rioux you set me free
Jackie N. Rioux: Barbara Loutzenhiser Goggins I know, I keep hearing his voice in my head. So happy and free now.
Jackie N. Rioux to Darrel Koehl
March 11 2022
Darrel Koehl: Thank you for the messages the other day. I know you’re always around me. I’ll love you for eternity.
Poem shared from John Roedel grief collection:
Hey God. Hey John.
death is the wildfire
that rips through
the forest of our life
it scorches the ground
it chars the rocks
it engulfs the trees
death is the fire
that comes to consume
everything
~ but it can’t
because after the fire is gone
there is always a miracle waiting
under the ashes of what our lives
used to look like
~ and the miracle is called grief…….